It’s a record, I think, for me to have been away from Sophia’s Children (and, for the most part, “radio silence” from the internet altogether) this long.
There’s a reason for that — threats at the door, literally, and super-quick change as a result.
First, though, welcome to January; welcome to 2017; and happy Epiphany time.
Now, the story about the wild (and threatening) whirlwind that whipped into my life two weeks ago.
On Solstice night, 21 December — just over two weeks ago — Life did bring a whirlwind to my door. Here’s the ‘to sum up’ version.
I returned home at about 7:30 p.m. after a full work-day that started just shy of 12 hours earlier.
I hadn’t even turned my lights on when the person who dropped me off called me to say that a man had followed her from my house and, when she stopped at a red-light, got out of his vehicle, came up to her driver’s side window, and proceeded to threaten and harass her.
She’s someone whose work has for a long time included confrontation with aggressive types whose bully-oriented behavior borders and sometimes crosses the boundary into threat and violence, so for her to say, “This guy was out of control … crazy!” is saying something.
She called to let me know that, and share her concern that I, too, might be in imminent danger, since the person had clearly been lurking-in-wait near my home before following and harassing her.
True to her “Spidey Senses,” and my own (which were at ‘red alert’ at this point), while we were on the telephone, a sudden eruption of very loud, aggressive pounding at both front AND back doors and door-windows, began.
It was like a scene straight out of a “psychological thriller” movie, and my body did what it was supposed to do in the face of threat of imminent harm to itself — the body activated the Lizard Brain and flooded itself with the ‘red alert’ fight-flight-freeze biochemical survival-cocktail.
So the pounding on front and back doors and windows erupted; I was still on the phone with her, my own heart pounding at that point, and she and her partner who was standing several feet away from her both heard the sustained door-pounding and yelling (“I know you’re in there!”) through her phone.
In those alarming moments — maybe 10 minutes at that point — I felt sure that if the door was opened, I’d be assaulted or worse. And I was concerned about just that … that whoever was on the other side of the doors pounding and shouting would soon be inside my flat.
Thankfully, it seems a neighbor was home and heard the ruckus, and his appearance may well have short-circuited whatever else might have occurred just then.
(Funny what people assume they can get away with when they think no one else sees or hears, yes? Talk about ‘toxic normal’ NarciPath stuff!).
It finally quieted, and by that time the woman who had been followed from my house and threatened at a red-light had called the police and, in person, filed a police report about the incident.
We’d both agreed at that point that it was a very good thing to have that all on formal record.
I didn’t sleep much or well, needless to say, given the traumatic events of the evening, and was concerned that when I headed out for the workday early Thursday, I’d be threatened or followed.
Solstice night, 12/21, turned out to be the last night I spent in that flat.
I only went back for short periods and always in the presence of someone else. I followed advice and, having learned who it was, put out communications to ‘cease and desist all further threatening behavior immediately’.
From the next day, Thursday — when an unexpected little support circle rose up and ‘circled the wagons’ around me — a combination of fear and anxiety, and wild grace, worked in tandem in me and for me.
Between that Solstice Night and now, I quickly walked that tightrope of anxiety for my own and my circle’s literal safety and the Wild Grace arising to carry me through, and I quickly (and in only those ‘short spurts’ at the old place, and with help) relocated.
I’m grateful that the quick shift occurred without further in-person threat or aggression, despite the constant anxiety and fear for my safety and the safety and wellbeing of those helping me to ‘Relo’ in such a short time-frame (and over the holidays, no less).
From that night through yesterday, it was a nonstop 2 weeks.
And when I was finally able to stop and rest and go gently yesterday, I acutely felt the need for deep replenishment as ‘medicine’ for the bone-weary fatigue of mind and body.
I am very grateful for many things just now, including the fact that I learned the hard way not to ignore the replenishment thing, and thus know how to do it.
When we’ve experienced such a thing and are recovering from it, it’s a necessity rather than a luxury to replenish.
So there we have it … the reason for the ‘radio silence’ here since before the holiday and the reason for my gratitude for all that unfolded so that I can be sharing this ‘end-of-2016 and start-of-2017 adventure’ with you now.
No doubt, as I always do, I’ll stir this recent experience and the insights that arise from it into the creative cauldron, and share whatever flows out as lantern-lights for others.
About 2016 …
I’ve heard from so many people, directly and indirectly, that 2016 was, for many, a very challenging and difficult year.
For me, 2016 was a mixed bag — a few marked constrictions and challenges that seemed very much outside of my control or very resistant to efforts to ‘remedy’ or ‘fix’ (the one I just shared being the most acute of these).
Then there were some unexpected and very beautiful blessings as well.
The year seemed to end with stark examples of both the ‘whirlwind’ and the ‘wild grace’ phenomena!
A few of you shared with me that 2016 was such a difficult year you were very, very glad that we passed from it to a new calendar year — 2017.
And now, 2017 …
Sometimes those ‘calendar milestones’ can be just that important — in this moment, we begin anew (remember that one?).
As mentor Caroline Casey says, “Now we’re into breaking spells.”
After the wild thrill-ride that unfolded these last two weeks for me, I’ll be using my full ‘magic backpack’ repertoire of practices and handy resources to re-center, replenish, and renew.
Only from that place, will the intuitive guidance, insight, ‘meaning-making’, and ‘next-step epiphanies’ spring forth.
In the meanwhile, here is some ‘perfect for right now’ Muse Food from the Sophia’s Children treasure-vault:
Janus: Looking Back, Looking Forward
Since I was a bit, er, distracted from Sophia’s Children updates for this past week or so, I’ve also still got the December special offerings up — for another day or two.
Stir your insight and inspiration with a Sophiastrology or coaching consultation:
Special offerings – good for another day or two
Wishing you Plentiful Grace as the days and weeks unfold.
January 7, 2017 at 7:27 pm
Wow, Jamie. Glad you’re safely relocated… and unharmed.
January 7, 2017 at 7:43 pm
Yes, those experiences can be very draining mentally and physically. I’m glad you got through it.
January 7, 2017 at 8:03 pm
Thank you, Eliza. True enough. They come out of left field (obviously) and this one had more grace than some, for which I’m grateful. All we can do is respond as well and skillfully as we can, eh? Blessings to you. Jamie
January 7, 2017 at 7:56 pm
Don’t live your life in fear, stay safe and watchful. I’m not sure relocating made this problem go away.
January 7, 2017 at 8:02 pm
Thanks, Don. I agree. Lived most of my life in major urban areas, so got used to the ‘stay watchful’ … alert, but not paranoid. Blessings. Jamie
January 8, 2017 at 3:32 am
Good to hear that you are ok Jamie.. Love, peace & harmony for 2017 ♥
Blessings Brock 😉
January 10, 2017 at 4:37 pm
Many thanks, Brock. All manner of weirdings do arise on the path, and sometimes what we CAN do is turn it into ‘teacher’ and practice. 🙂 Blessings and Wild Grace to you now and as this new calendar year unfolds! Jamie
January 10, 2017 at 5:23 pm
January 8, 2017 at 3:34 am
Wow, sounds like a scary experience. Glad you got through it, and so efficiently during the holiday period, no less. Wishing you quality rest and replenishment time, and that your safety continues.
January 10, 2017 at 4:38 pm
Thank you, Janet. No telling what gets stirred up and spewed onto the path. 🙂 I continue to enjoy your Magic & Meditation musings, so thank you for all that you share. Blessings and thanks again, Jamie
January 8, 2017 at 12:39 pm
Bless you for sharing…
Sending you a Divine Hug for gathering your Presence and moving in swiftness.
Nurture yourself gently as this energy releases, feel our Peace, Light and Love as We gather in Unity around your Inner Circle.
May 2017 unfold as a year of Inner Strength and Truth of Purpose.
January 10, 2017 at 4:29 pm
Many thanks, Charlie, for the beautiful message and blessing and Divine Hug. All most appreciated! May that blessing for 2017 ripple out to all in the greater Community and Circle. With continued appreciation for all you share, too. Jamie
January 8, 2017 at 4:41 pm
Dear Heart — OMGosh!
So happy you are safe, that your friends’ quick thinking and compassion supported you through this last “station of the cross” of 2016. May your new home space nurture you and allow your expansion into this New Year of beginnings on the neurological spiral. In my opinion — things are looking up, Alia
January 10, 2017 at 4:39 pm
That’s pretty apt wording, Alia. Many thanks for stopping by, for the blessing and well-wishes. I hope you and your beloved are well! May the Big Love and Grace continue to spiral and weave into the experience for all of us. Lots of love, Jamie
January 8, 2017 at 10:21 pm
That must have been a terrifying experience Jamie, I’m glad that you’re safe and well and that you had such a great support system to draw on.
January 10, 2017 at 4:41 pm
Thank you, Andrea. It sure was … the body’s ‘red alert’ system worked beautifully, and that most wonderful grace did indeed arise to help transport me through. It’s a good example of what arises when the less-noble bits of human nature get stirred up enmasse, and we’re all contributing to ‘the medicine’ or ‘balancing element’ for that. 🙂 Blessings and a very grace-and-joy filled 2017 to you. Love, Jamie
January 9, 2017 at 7:29 pm
Wow! So glad to hear all rearranged itself in short order and that you had support along the way. Huge blessings for your new home and rejuvenation period. Much love, Laura
January 10, 2017 at 4:42 pm
Thank you, Laura. Never a dull, eh? 🙂 Thanks for the blessings and good wishes, and may they spiral back to you as well. Love, Jamie
January 10, 2017 at 4:49 pm
Yes, never dull, indeed. I’ve had similar windows of freakish intensity like that, so I definitely sympathize but also know how amazing the swift kick into a new universe can be. Love, Laura
January 10, 2017 at 5:42 pm
So sorry that you were subject to such an ordeal to the point of relocating Jamie.. What an experience to go through and over Christmas also..
I hope though that through your circle of good friends you now feel safer and more settled..
Wishing your New Year to be filled with an Abundance of Harmony..
Love to you Sue xx
January 10, 2017 at 6:08 pm
Many thanks, Sue. The turbulent wave (one that California coast-dwellers would call a ‘sneaker wave’) came through and things are settling a bit more now on the other side of it; I’m grateful for it. 🙂 Blessings to you! Jamie
January 11, 2017 at 9:50 am
I am just pleased all is well.. There is some very turbulent energy out there which people are not coping well with at all.. Causing all kinds of impulsive destructive behaviours… Stay safe!! <3
January 13, 2017 at 9:47 pm
True enough, Sue. Between full moon and (I think) the upcoming ‘Mars-Saturn Square’ it’s a very good idea to stay cool, remain super mindful, and be low-key and go gently whenever possible! Maybe that’s good counsel for other times, too. 🙂 Love, Jamie
January 15, 2017 at 3:06 pm
One to remember for certain.. 🙂
January 23, 2017 at 7:14 pm
I am glad you are alright. Stay safe!
January 27, 2017 at 6:08 pm
Thank you, Persephone Rose! 🙂 Blessings to you, Jamie
January 25, 2017 at 1:19 am
Wow! What a terrifying experience, Jamie, whew! Thankfully, you weren’t harmed and you have a great support team/system and have quickly relocated.
January 27, 2017 at 6:11 pm
Thank you, Nadine. I’ll be catching up for a bit, since I’ve been online less since 12/21 and all that’s unfolded in the aftermath, but yes … I’ll absolutely continue to share the nuggets I pick up along the way. 🙂 Lots of love and hoping you’re well in your part of this beautiful Earth! Jamie
January 25, 2017 at 1:27 am
I don’t know what happened, but the rest of my comments didn’t go through….
Anyhow, I’m so glad you are now safe — and already writing and sharing your wisdom, thank you!
Take good care, & Brightest Blessings!!! 😀 ⭐ ❤ ⭐ 😀